Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Sadness of September

The month of September is a very emotional month for family and for myself. September brings birthdays, wedding anniversaries, cornfest, and anniversaries of the passing of my Grandpa and Grandma.

Just as anyone else would say about their own grandparents, my Grandma and Grandpa were two of the greatest people I have ever known. They were full of love for each other and full of love for everyone else. Words can not begin to explain how much we miss them both each and every day.

My Grandpa and I summer 2009
I was very lucky to have spent the last month of my grandpa's life with him. I was able to gain a month of memories that I will hold in my heart forever. On September 27, 2013 my family and I got to say our final good-byes to such a wonder man who will forever be in our hearts.
My brothers and I with our Grandma. Summer 2013
After my Grandpa passed away, my Grandma moved in with my family. Four days shy of the two year anniversary of my Grandpa's passing, my family experienced an unexpected loss. My Grandma had joined Grandpa in heaven. When I left that morning, I had no idea that it would be the last time I would tell her "I'll see you later" as  I walked out the door. It seems just like yesterday this all happened but today (as I write this) has been one year. I remember the day like it happened yesterday. September 23, 2013 will be a day I will never forget.  Although we all miss you more than words can describe, we know that you are together again. You both are watching down on us; keeping us safe as if you were here with us today. 

I miss and love you both with all my heart. September will never be the same. Our lives will never be the same but knowing you are together again helps shed a little light on these difficult days when we can not think of nothing but you.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Dear Future Me,

Dear future me,
There are so many questions I want to ask you! There are so many things I want to know about you! Did you graduate college yet? Have you gotten married? Have you had kids? Where do you live? Do you work? If so, where? Did you ever figure out how to do winged eyeliner without looking like a total mess? Although I have all these questions, there are a few things I want to remind you of just in case you have forgotten.
The first thing I want to remind you of is very important. I want to remind you of all the bad, upsetting, and trying time you have had. You may be wondering why I want you to remember these times that you have tried so hard to forget; but trust me, there is a reason. Just think back to them. Do you remember? It's because of those times that you are where you are today. Yes, the good, happy times play a part in the success you're living today but it's because you worked hard, stayed positive, and looked toward your future during those rough times that you made it through them. Use the memories of those hard times and how you got through them for the next hard time you go through. Trust me, hard times are sure to hit again but you can get through it. You have done it before. You can do it again. 

Remember, sometimes it is OK to put yourself first and others second at times. I know this is NOT what you were taught growing up but your happiness is very important. You can not help others if you're not happy and well. Going with the point of putting yourself first at times, remember what you want for yourself and from yourself; not what others want for you and from you. You've worked hard to get to the point of knowing what you want. DO NOT let others change that for you. Lastly, I want to remind you to be YOURSELF. Only you can be you! No one else can! Be the best you you can possible be. 


ME (9/18/2014)